What lights my soul on fire?

7 Rada (7 of Swords) Erzulie Freda Dahomey

The 7 of Swords seems like a strange card to describe what lights someone’s soul on fire, if you’re used to reading with a RWS style deck. This is one of those times that the image on the card is more important than it’s accepted book meaning.

Erzulie Freda Dahomey governs air from the realm of emotions. In this painting, there are two mirrors. They aren’t facing, though, so no open portal to manifestation is available right now. Wishes not yet manifested are turning into tears. If you look, you’ll see a little ship sailing on those tears. A few days ago I turned up the 9 Rada, and in that painting, the Masa were depicted as a ship. So it’s time to go back and have a lookie look at that.

*Pours coffee*

Ahem.

The thing I saw when I turned over this card was my career. The beautiful Erzulie sitting at her makeup table was rather direct. For 25 years I’ve been an esthetician. I’ve taken other training along the way, Reiki, Reflexology, Indian Head Massage, Aromatherapy and so on, but it’s all been to support my work as an esthetician. The lockdowns killed my career in Canada. That’s all I’ll say about that because otherwise I’ll go off on a tangent that will probably trigger the pandemic censors of whatever platform I post this on.

When I moved to the USA in December I was hopeful and excited that I would be renting a shop somewhere by now but that’s not happening either, because bureaucracy. My application for a license to practise has been indefinitely stalled because I was educated in another country.

I do worry about that. I’m also aware of the meaning of these two cards together, the 9 and 7 Rada. This is what lights up my soul, though. I wouldn’t have done it for 25 years otherwise. I’m not going to lie; I’m having a really hard time imagining myself as anything else but an esthetician. It never occurred to me that I identified so strongly with my career until I couldn’t do it anymore.

The divination for this card is, “Imaginings beyond possibility, the jolt of shattered dreams.”

Yup. Shattered. Tarot, you’re starting to piss me off, but I’ll keep playing because I must like it when it hurts. That’s all I got to say about that today.